I keep not wanting to write the “why I’m not blogging” post, but here goes. I am CRAZY tired lately! My 10-month-old is going through some kind of growth spurt or teething or revenge-on-Mommy for not letting her have unlimited Cheerios and is getting up two to three times a night. Last night she was up at 1 a.m. (and then I was awake until 2) and then back up from 4 a.m. to 6 a.m. If I had fed her the second time, she would have gone right back to sleep, but I decided to re-sleep train her instead, which entailed rocking and singing and frantically purchasing the White Noise Baby app from iTunes and oh-shit it won’t download to the iPad for some reason and oh-shit my husband’s credit card information needs to be updated so it won’t download to his iPhone either and “Haven’t you typed in that credit card yet??!!” at 5 a.m. while she was screaming her head off. It’s been like this for the past couple of weeks, and it’s killing me. During the day, my toddler is taking naps only about 50 percent of the time, and when he does it’s a huge fight and he never sleeps at the same time as my baby, so I get NO break. (Friday once he was quiet and I thought he had fallen asleep, I peeked into his room to find him sitting in his T-shirt and underwear with half a jar of Cetaphil cream all over his body, clothes, and bed. It was in his mouth and on his face and globbed all over the sheets. “Snow cream!” he said, rubbing a handful into the wooden bed frame.)
My only time to blog is the two days we have a babysitter, during which time I also have to go to doctor appointments, tour preschools, get haircuts, pay bills, do laundry, edit books, write, etc. etc. And in order not to go totally insane with sleep deprivation, I’ve been going to bed by 9 the past few nights (except last night was Mad Men, so I had to stick some toothpicks in my eyelids and stay up until 11. No, we don’t have TIVO), which nixes the idea of writing in the evening.
I miss my blog friends. I miss blogging, and I miss reading blogs and posting links. I have a backlog of posts half-written in my head, but until my munchkin starts sleeping better, I’ll have to settle for squeezing one or two out per week.